we don't get along very well but I do relate to this quite deeply and I do hope you can turn a corner even if for a time being, It seems to be getting tougher unfortunately

Thank you camel

you feeling better? those thoughts are super scary

i feel this

at my lowest

I mean I'm not always like actively upset about it so I guess

rt

tired of it all.

I'm sitting here on my bathroom floor crying silently. The one friend I had left is no longer a part of my life. I'm completely alone with zero people to talk to. I'm the problem and it's probably clear I have always been. I'm broken. I'm useless. And everyone would be much better without me. So I don't blame them. Truth is I'd kill myself if I could, but I can't have my daughter growing up without a father and a family lose their son. So I guess I'll just keep living this miserable life as punishment. If it's what I have to deal with then so be it.

And worst of all is that this is the only place I've just vomited my emotions all over for the past months. Like as if s*** would just magically get better. I'm sorry ya'll.

life doesn’t stop finding new ways to beat my ass

can't recommend a good therapist and/or psychiatrist enough. "Lost" 5yrs of my life to mental health issues and for the last few months I've started attending both regularly and it makes such a difference, even if it takes hella effort and will to actually change. Been feeling lonely and very depressed for years and having someone to help you with an educated outside perspective is a lifesaver. Just realizing how I'm manipulating myself and perpetuating the cycle I'm stuck in made a big impact on me.

Keep moving forward bros and sisters, it can be a s***ty road, but you can make it, and there's always someone who can give you a hand

Man holidays and s*** are rough as f***. Always feel guilty by not being there as much time as I can, but also doesn’t help my mom has mental struggles as well so she inadvertently makes feel guilty every time I can’t or don’t want to come right away or early

One thing I rly dislike about my psychiatrist is she always seems to believe I'm like totally powerless to change. Like she wants me to go to this outpatient d*** addiction treatment thing, but that s*** seems so OD to me (no pun intended)

I take edibles like 3-4 times a week, that's basically it, I had a few relapses with alcohol but nothing crazy

My dumbass f***ed around an got addicted to tobacco

I was like why do I feel like complete s***

Talk to me if u need someone to vent to jus at me

Ik it's not the same cus im a random dude on the internet, but I been there man, I remember last year I was in the dual treatment facility crying like a baby

i hate needing to work it’s so stupid

Depression hit me last night.
Woke up without wanting too live.
Crazy how it just flips on and off.

Gonna take it slow today

got prescribed prozac i don’t even wanna take this s***

starting lexapro after being off zoloft for a while, high but realistic hopes

If you feel that the Prozac is too much, but still want something to help with your mode, then there is the option of taking Dopa Mucuna and l-tryptophan/5-HTP.

I know this is cliche guys but start working out. I was depressed a lot last year but this year I started being motivated to go to the gym.

Beyond physical strength it also gives me mental strength. You know that feeling when your body is telling you you can't do another rep, but you do it anyway. Or when you feel too lazy to go to gym, but you go anyway.

All that stuff builds resilience. Like, it sucks, it's painful, but you can do it and conquer. You are stronger than you think.

Going to gym has helped me believe that I can deal with all the BS in my life, and it doesn't have to weigh me down.

Ah its back

Itll blow over

At least the music always hits harder