I'M NOT OKAY BUT I'M GONNA BE ALRIGHT.

IN THE FACE OF OBLIVION, I PERSIST. I LAUGH. I LOVE. I JOY. I GET MAD. BUT NEVER DESPAIR.

IN THE MIDST OF TRULY THE MOST CHAOTIC TIMELINE OF MY LIFE AND REGAINED THE WILL TO PUSH TF THRU.

WILL NOT GO BACK TO 2017 WHEN NIGGAS WAS SLEEPING THE DAYS AWAY.

What do you do when the people that hurt the ones you love seem to live without the consequences they deserve

First appointment tomorrow, time to get my s*** together

hard not to rot

Like I should be reading books

Watching shows

But i'd rather just sit in front of my comp or phone scrolling endlessly

Yeah i just dont think i can live in nyc during the winter i think it settles it

Student loans are due by mid next month

Dark magic voodoo curses

That wind is brutal

I havent applied to a job in over a week

I finally got a job

Now im worried

greatergood.berkeley.edu/podcasts/series/the_science_of_happiness

One of the hardest weekends of my life man.

Wouldnt wish this experience on an enemy bro.

maybe we should start a ktt book club

Trying my first dose of meds, I’m nervous and happy at the same. Feels like a brand new chapter

anybody have schizophrenia & have to take an injection every month?

Its happening again

been abusing substances this first month of the year. not great.

Thought I was going insane with all my anxiety and s*** but in reality it’s cause I got another f***ing cold

Coworker I’ve been getting closer with told me I had some admirers around the workplace and I got excited since I have some crushes myself.

Turns out the two people who were into me are both gay men

I’ve been laughing about it all evening because of course it’s never a woman my age saying things or having these feelings lol. Since I’ve been trying to turn my life around it’s been mostly old ladies complimenting or (in this case) gay men admiring.

I still feel very flattered, it’s just like…damn lmao

What a couple of days.
I have been so stressed, pushed to the limits and obsessed.
I drove myself so hard, and yesterday I relapsed in my addiction.

Today I feel so numb yet I feel so bad.

Better things are ahead and one relapse is no reason to just throw what I have learned away and completely relapse.

I feel very lucky to have a partner, other wise I think I would just have kept going today.

I also have to be careful with pushing myself too much.
Besides the relapse, I am also just completely beat by stressing and being in alarm mode for about 4 days.
And yet it was nice to be passionate about something, sadly it was a negative I had to solve so not the passion I need more of in my life, but its good to know passion and willpower is still within me( I know it might sounds strange proclaiming willpower after a relapse)

Sleep schedule has gone to s*** again

If my job wasn't so flexible I would be unemployed

This thread has officially been cleansed of all negative energy, please take these blessings and have a wonderful 2026