The world feels heavy
I afraid of war
I see horrible imagery
Don’t know what to do with this fear

this polticial climate isnt helping s*** for my brain

just been so angry. i feel so tired.

no motivation to be creative.. i have all these ideas but they never go anywhere.

i'm stuck. i wanna go but i can't start.

Been struggling with self confidence lately, bumping tons of old Kanye as a result!!

As a man in my mid 20’s who was in a career slump for almost 2 years, I’ve realized that I can never be satisfied. I’m working a great job now in tech for the past month that I thought would cure my itch for success, but I’m still left wanting more. I find myself constantly belittling myself even though I’m in a comfortable position right now. I’m not broke, I have a great social circle, my family is doing well, and I’m in a great industry with high potential for growth. Only thing lacking rn is I need to get my ass back in the gym and take my fitness seriously like I used to. I guess I’ll never be happy with where I am and am always gonna nitpick myself to be more and more ambitious no matter how well I’m doing.

Can’t sleep
Been struggling with sleep the couple of days

what is the point of breathing without being loved?

You can be provided with all the food and nutrition possible, but if you aren't loved, then wtf does it even mean!?.....

Does anyone else feel like after some point in their life a type of joy just left their body? I always have certain flashbacks of memories of times earlier in my life and i always think back like "damn i felt so much more joyful at that time than i do now i haven't felt that in years"

And to add on to that post above

I think Im becoming a personal nostalgia merchant. Im constantly listening to songs from times when i was happier, i drove to the neighborhood i grew up in and walked around to get that old nostalgic feeling i did when i was young, i drove past my old high school hangout spot and played songs i used to play at that time just to capture that old feeling i used to have. I think I've been using it as an escape but im getting kinda worried bc i feel like the only way i can find that old happiness that i used to have is to live those moments again

went thru this and now even the nostalgia doesn‘t make me feel a thing anymore

i’m beyond cooked

I wonder what the complete opposite of this feeling is. I can’t imagine a state of peace/satisfaction so great.

First time in a long time I really asked myself, “ayo wtf goin on?”

Still not getting more than a few hours sleep.
I use weed to help sleep, but the last 2 night I have been having panic attacks.

I close my eyes and imagines appears and I drift into sleep, but right as I am about to slip into sleep I open my eyes in shock.

It got really bad last night, I drifted into sleep and woke in shock about 30 times, and got so paranoid and afraid of having a heart attack.

I am gonna take some anti psychotic meds tonight, they help me sleep but I have not had the need for them in years

I deadass look at people like wow they just go thru life with No dark cloud everything just sunshine

I’m sure everyone has their days. It’s the ability to leave those “days” and return to a regular state of being content that I’m curious about.

had to put the cat down that we just got in april. s*** sucks

Tomorrow, I face my biggest fear in my entire life (flying)

I am facing it twice this week

I have been consistently tense and find my thoughts going crazy but

It’s time

Deathwish

Flight one down

Flight two in a few days

you got thru it, good for u!

Losing my s***

Feeling very evil

Havent felt this since last time i cut