It's been a nice life, money and the bright lights
Ain't as bad as people describe

The more I get, the more I want
I'm greedy for your lovin'

Put the latuda in my ass

Reading through the cptsd subreddit and relating to a lot of it

Panicking

works never gotten to me like this before

over some small s*** as well bruh

F*** Kaiser.
I just visited a brand new primary care doctor, no history with the guy. After LITERALLY 5 minutes of talking to him, he says I have depression and anxiety, and says he wants to put me on depression meds which will help me last longer in bed. Wtf… I guess I look like I c***quick because I never told him anything that would give him the idea that I need to f*** longer. Why is Kaiser Permanente so s***ty?

crine 😂

heartbreak so intense i booked an appointment with a therapist for the first time in my life

Im so frustrated with myself, it seems every time i make progress it takes a second to lose everything and go back to square one. Im so tired of being scared, im jealous of normal people. I just want to make a connection man. Not even the thought of regret motivates me, im gonna live a f***ing sad life at this point and its all my fault

Mixed feelings about my first therapy session ever

I enjoyed it. I liked talking to him. It was good.

But now I'm feeling weird, a strange feeling of... impending doom or agony. Like, I feel guilty for talking about personal stuff

27 is a nice age to go

“Yeah I’m a piece of s***, I know I plead the fifth.”

i’ve always felt so unnoticed.

over the past few years i’ve been struggling to accept myself & didn’t view myself as a person.

i wanna say its getting better but i don’t know. some days i feel here & present but most days its just.. back to the same feeling of not viewing myself as a individual.

f***

Rumination and obsession is torture

If i lose her i risk back to being alone and i don’t want that

Idk why my mental state is so dependent on whether or not i get the job or not. If i get it im on a euphoric bliss if i dont i fall into a depression and lose the will to do anything else.

Maybe its because i dont have anything else to look forward to in my life.