ty tang! i hope so!!

i do psychs and make art a lot its a big part of my process!!

im def not a perfect person but i hope its good enough :)

Okay so basically shrooms are a coin toss that will either totally fix this or make it much worse

if u dont start off with a lot and have the right setting chances are youd catch that it makes you uncomfortable before it made it worse. like if u only had a gram and felt good, wait a couple months, try a gram and a half etc and if at any point its unpleasant or making u worse just stop before it gets bad.

if you like have never tripped before and went right into a 3.5 gram trip of some strong mushrooms that can def make everything way worse

something like 80% of people who try it in studies say it was top 5 most important experience of their lives

I refused to eat food that was prepared by anyone else, would quadruple check packages, would throw things away and wouldn't eat it if my mind came up with any reason that something seemed off for a while

I refused to eat anything with my hands for a couple months because I was convinced I could have gotten some dangerous chemical on them or some germ that could make me ill

For a couple months I didn't really go outside because I would feel as though people were stalking me. I would watch out the window and would convince myself people were coming for me if a car drove down my road slowly

For a couple months I would stay up all night convincing myself I heard people tapping on my windows and ended up calling the cops multiple times in the middle of the night

None of this was ever super long term

Like a couple months-a year at most

And it's off and on kinda

oh maybe u shouldnt eat them then

im sorry you had to deal with this twin

I hope things are better for you now

Oh yeah there's nothing like that going on recently

It's a weird off and on thing

Like a random thought will trigger me and I'll spiral for a bit until it goes away randomly or I force myself to deal with it and then it goes away

Not really related but when I was coming down the hall to my dorm one day and there was this dude like 5 feet from my door with a bloody fist and arm, like pouring blood, who was clearly coked out of his mind

I was like "dude, what happened, u alright?" and he starts speedrunning me through his story

"yeah man so pretty much me and my boys was smoking and set the fire alarm off and we tried to get it to stop but we couldn't so pretty much I just punched the s*** out of it until it shut up and pretty soon the cops showed up and yeah man i'm definitely about to get expelled"

I was thinking "Cops?" until I stepped like a foot forward and saw cops standing not 5 feet away from us, (hallway in front of my door is a t-shaped intersection of hallways) in front of his open dorm with blood and glass and garbage everywhere

dont hesitate to tell us if it comes again so we can try to help you through it

The beautiful coin toss

Embrace the schizod thinking
Become one

Do you all think there is something beyond the physical

tbh ive never had a bad trip. ive had unpleasant trips but always got something out of it that made it extremely worth it

bet my life on it

absolutely

Explain your view

I've heard it can go very badly if people like that experiment with psychedelics

And I'm not like diagnosed with anything. I've decided I just have little rough patches/no real mental illness like that. I've also never like spoken to a professional about it though

I may be projecting some of my own issues onto your descriptions of yours, but some of this sounds very OCD-esque, which can be comorbid with other (often paranoid or delusional) mental disorders

if that resonates with you, it's worth looking into it. Not in a corny corporate "just reach out if you're ever like a danger to yourself :(" way, but in a "they actually make very effective medication and/or specialized therapy for this" way

That's very nice but it's not in my personality to like look for help if im currently going through something

If that anxiety we feel is us tapping into something we’re not prepared for

Not my views